Hm, I haven't shared my personal life for a while now...

[beeinmybonnet]

Blarghity.


- I'll start this post with once again complaining over how the time just slip through my fingers. Not only does school suck my time and energy out of me like some sort of distasteful leech, but I need bloody hours to wind down before I can write, and all of a sudden it's time for bed. God, how I hate my ADHD sometimes. Oh well, I met my psychopathist psychiatrist today, and we agreed to up the dosage to 120 mg. That ought to help. And apparently I have a problem with squinting and astigmatism (not that the latter is any surprise...) and that is why can't see right. And the lovely news is that even if I get new, improved glasses, they won't help with this. *headdesk* Although one thing is awesome; I have gotten a referral to an allergist! \o/ Sure, it's mainly because we need to check if I'm so allergic to milk that I can't munch pills that contain minute traces of it (I believe I am, but better to make sure, right?) but while I'm there, I can whine and beg on bended knees for a sensitizing (or whatever the correct word is in English) so we can finally get a dog. I'm telling you, being this allergic is not fun. Anyone interested in a list of all my allergies? It's long, I tell you!


- Remember the First Year-fic? (No, I haven't abandoned it. I'm just a slow writer, and I can't concentrate enough to write, see above.) Well, the beginning has been nettling me for quite a while, and I sat down and reread the entire half-finished piece to see what was wrong (all +10,000 words~). And guess what I figured out? I rushed the events in the beginning, so I have to rewrite about half of it, if not more. Lovely, no? I shouldn't complain though; compared to other fics, this one has given me almost no writerly angst at all.
Now, if only the bloody werewolf essay would be as cooperative... *eyes document nastily* At least I'm over 2,800 words. It's gonna be long~


- Fanmixes are awesome. Full stop. If I hadn't been hoarding and downloading them like mad, I would never have heard of Something Corporate/Jack's Mannequin, Dashboard Confessional, Stars, Vienna Teng, Evermore, Voxtrot, Bright Eyes, and to an extent, my beloved Imogen Heap. So yes, fanmixes are awesome. <3


- House season 5 has started. :3 (If you're reading this, usomitai, stop doing that at once -- here be spoilers!) Yes, I know I'm six days late, but I'm stuck up here in Scandinavia, so I can't really help it. Anyways, that isn't what's important; what's important is that House and Wilson are on TV again! *flails* And they're just as lovely and screwed up as always. I'll be honest and say that the angst only makes me happy, which is... weird, seeing I was devastated during the Tritter Arc. Maybe I'm happy because I know that everything will work out in the end? Oh well, we'll wait and see~


I'll shut up now. I hope all of you are feeling well! <3

Comments

[brighty18.livejournal.com]

Hi!

Hopefully the dosage changes will help you. And things will start to feel better. That makes a big difference in everything in life, does it not?

So, are you allergic to dogs? I hope that you really can get one because they're a lot of fun!

And I am totally looking forward to your fics and essay!

[beeinmybonnet.livejournal.com]

Hi! Sorry for the late reply; I really did get sick and felt so awful for the last few days that I didn't log on at all. Sorry for that, but better late than never, right?

I hope it will help too. And absolutely, if you feel optimistic, life has a tendency to go smoothly.

Yes, alas I am! And I'm so angry about that, because I adore dogs and always have been. I'm having both my fingers and toes crossed for this treatment (even if it will take a loooong time before I'll even get to see the allergist..).

And I am totally looking forward to your fics and essay!
Things like this boost my ego, inspiration and mood like you wouldn't believe it. *g* Thank you!

[xbittersweet89x.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know exactly what you mean by 'needing hours to wind down'. As you may know, I have ADHD as well and I have the same problem. I have also trouble concentrating for more than a few minutes - especially if the work doesn't exercise my mind very much. It's a bloody nuisance. I'm not on any medication anymore (haven't been since I was 14 anyway), because I wasn't able to stomach it. I literally got sick from the stuff. I usually tell myself that I don't need it anymore, but there are days when I realize that I do still need it. The trouble with this disorder is that it's not going to just go away sometime. Either you have it, or you don't.

Hopefully upping the dosage will help and things will start to look up again. And good luck with the allergies thing. Allergies suck. Thankfully I was spared from any allergies, but I have a friend who's allergic to a million of things. It really controls your life.

I am really looking forward to your fics and the essay. Good luck with it.

I love fanmixes. <3 And Jack's Mannequin rocks.

Heee. Finally, someone who loved the season premiere as much as I did. And I'm really looking forward for all the angst that is yet to come. I'm incredibly happy that they're finally dealing with some of their issues, instead of just casting them aside, like they've done in the past. I'm a huge sucker for angst, which comes naturally with being in the HP fandom, so this is just the right season for me.

[beeinmybonnet.livejournal.com]

Hi! Sorry for the late reply; I really did get sick and felt so awful for the last few days that I didn't log on at all. Sorry for that, but better late than never, right?

Oh, I didn't know you had ADHD! ... Am I a bad person if I admit that I'm sort of happy to hear it? I mean, of course I'm not glad that you're having millions of problems that complicate your life and that you can't do anything about, but... It's nice to hear/know that there is someone who understands, who just isn't "Oh, but there are several girls who have the same problem as you. Honestly. They're just not here. They're... elsewhere." God, am I totally insensitive now?
Argh, the attention-span problem much be beyond awful. If I'm interested, I can hold my concentration for quite a long time, but I'm easily distracted and it takes ages to become focused in the first place.
I wouldn't survive one day without my precious pills. I'm munching on... what, five-six different ones right now? Anyways, they're my life-savers. Long live psychopharmacologic drugs! <3
You got sick from the pills? Gargh. You have my outmost pity, if you want it.

And YES, allergies are a royal pain in the arse. Still, nothing beats the ADHD.

I am really looking forward to your fics and the essay. Good luck with it.
Thank you! <3 To hear that is a great boost.

Jack's Mannequin!! <3
I wake up to find it's another
Four aspirin morning, and I dive in
I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.
When did society decide that we had to change
And wash a tee shirt after every individual use?
If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.
I take the stairs to the car
And there's fog on the windows.
(And I'm Fighting the words...)
I need caffeine in my blood stream;
I take caffeine in the blood stream.
I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:
(And you're getting away...)
My life has become a boring pop song
And everyone's singing along.
When I heard these lyrics I knew that I would love everything by this band. <3

Aaaand... House MD! *g*
The premiere was really great. And the second episode was awsome! <3 Season 4 felt slightly off to me, but this season looks like it's going to be brilliant. And I admit that I hope that Lucas/"Mr. Sprinkles" will stay for a long time, if not forever. I adore him! *g*

[xbittersweet89x.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear you've been sick. I hope you're better now. <3

Oh, that's perfectly alright. You don't have to apologize. I know what you mean. I felt the same way, when I found out I had ADHD. I didn't know anyone back then who had it and even now I only know one person personally who has it - except for my half-brother, that is.

Yeah, I know what you mean. Once I get distracted by something it's very difficult - if not impossible - for me to become focused again.

Six different kinds of pills? That's quite a lot. Yes, it wasn't easy. Even with the pills.

True. ADHD sucks. But I think being allergic and having ADHD sucks more.

I love Jack's Mannequin. <3 Sadly, they're not at all famous here in Germany. In fact, there are only a few people who even know them. It's a shame. Really.

[latenightcuppa.livejournal.com]

1) Aww, I really hope that everything works out for you in regards to your health. I also have astigmatism, so I have specially made contacts(and glasses for it).

2) Oh, the woes of a writer. I have been going through some pretty unfortunate writer's block as of late, so I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors! They all sound so interesting.

3) slkdjflsjdfld House/Wilson -FLAIL- I like the angst as well. I think that it eventually, it will draw them closer. It forces House to show that he actually does care. I, just, erm! I want Wilson back soon!

4) Why did I number this list? I have no idea.

[beeinmybonnet.livejournal.com]

Hi! Sorry for the late reply; I really did get sick and felt so awful for the last few days that I didn't log on at all. Sorry for that, but better late than never, right?

1) Aw, thank you! That's very nice of you. <3 I hope it will work out to, because I really, really, really want to be able to write "for real" again.
I would try contact, if it wasn't for the fact that my eyes are so sensitive that they would only irate them. God, I get a bit tired of my body some times.

2) Again, thank you! *g* Writer's block is one of the foulest creatures things on earth. They feed on every good feeling, every happy memory; our pain becomes their power.
... Okay, that quote didn't fit entirely. *g* But the point still stands: writer's block = D:

3) Yes, the ANGST! It's awesome this season, isn't it? And I really like Lucas/"Mr. Sprinkles". He's clever and amusing -- I'm looking forward to see more of him. And if only House and Wilson would stop being so emotionally retarded...
... Hm. I wonder if Shore et al are going to combine the rumored road-trip with the Wilson backstory? Because I really want to see LLB at last!

4) Numbers and lists are your friends. That's why.

[msninacat.livejournal.com]

I hope you can get everything sorted out on the medical front. House is love! I have an alarm labeled "House" in my cell phone so I don't miss it.

[beeinmybonnet.livejournal.com]

Hi! Sorry for the late reply; I really did get sick and felt so awful for the last few days that I didn't log on at all. Sorry for that, but better late than never, right?

Thank you! I hope it will turn out well too.

House! *flails* This season looks like it's going to rock! <3

[msninacat.livejournal.com]

No worries! I disappear every weekend because I'm on ALL week and I need a break.

They are killing me with all this Wilson and House tension!